Like Raijuu, Hiryuu has also been all over the place. She DID NOT EXPECT for him to turn up here because. I mean even though Cable and Wire are both from the same place, and Silver and Gold too-they all came together in the same wave. She never thought new people would be a thing, and there wasn't enough TIME between Abi appearing and meeting Raijuu for her to really intuit that. could be a thing. So just. PANIC and FEAR and OH NO, NOT THE BOY SHE SAID SHE WANTED TO PROTECT NO MATTER WHAT. And then things spiraled from there. She would have just drug herself across the broken glass from her brokero kokoro is not for people questioning her judgment, so kudos on them for that, it would have been a really hard time for her... as already evidenced. (Considering the things currently going down, I'm not sure she could have handled that other pressure. She would have, i guess, but not without breaking a lot of plates.)
She told Hurricane at first she didn't like him but. It was kneejerk childishness. "OF COURSE I DON'T LIKE HIM, HE BULLIES ME." But she was already compromised? Like of course she didn't like the way he treated HER but she found a lot of him admirable. Unlike Raijuu who is like "maybe I shouldn't treat these memories with a grain of salt" Hiryuu takes them as the Word of God. Even the ones that aren't hers, she's trying to adapt to accordingly: so Abi and Raijuu are Companions and Special People to her, full stop. In Abi's case, the feelings aren't quite there yet, but soon. Soon. Anyway she is very easily swayed by her heart and doesn't question things naturally so that's just her way. But it also just feels natural and comfortable to be able to have this bickering-but-not-serious pattern with him; like, it actually... relieves... some of her stress, somewhat. It's good for her, since she actually behaves like a normal person with him and takes off her Pope Hat (which is from now on what I am referring to her drive to be Inhumanly Good as).
He is absolutely right though to think that Hiryuu wouldn't believe that he's in love with her. She's already solidified in her mind that he sees her as unattractive and unfortunately memories will only further confirm that (although they should also not?? HIRYUU???) IT IS POSSIBLE, IN THEORY, THAT someone could convince her that Raijuu was lying, but then of course she would ask him and he would deny and they'd just start the same old song-and-dance around the hat again. But the more that she'll learn about herself, the less she'll see herself as a viable candidate for someone. Not Good Enough, doomed to Be Unhappy, apparently, thanks Dad/prophecies. Also eventually that feeling of self-blame for all of their presences here is going to really hit home and cement so. You know. ANYWAY POINT BEING she has already told B that she's just going to fully devote herself to her Missions because people only see her as a child/unfit for romance (boy Boss's impressions would not help with that) and so That Is That. (Except the real problem is Yona heart very squish and very full of love and already Compromised AND there is a part of her who DOES really crave positive attention and feeling loved and valued, hence EVERYTHING SOO-WON and baby crushes on people who are just thoroughly kind to her, so what are you gonna do..........)
I feel like I lost the plot here somehow. Oh yeah.
Anyway, Hiryuu is very. Torn. Responsible Pope Hat brain tells her that in order to be kind to Raijuu and not make him feel any kind of stress about picking between her and his unit, she should discourage him from making any kind of oath, televised or not. She is INCREDIBLY ANXIOUS about avante, like, she really does like them as people but their stance is much harder and she's afraid that they may end up at the other ends of each other's swords because like hell HSS wouldn't protect people (circumstance dependent) if avante went on the attack. She also has gotten the impression that ACE REALLY DOES NOT LIKE HER / THEM and like... vaguely.... maybe not *hostile* vibes but icy/unwelcome vibes and she feels like maybe an oath to her would just exacerbate all of that unpleasantness. But then there's SELFISH LIZARD BRAIN in the other corner of the ring and selfish lizard brain--it's not as strong as it COULD be, but selfish lizard brain is lonely and tired and it still doesn't want to let him go/wants a place to go to that feels like "home." Selfish lizard brain is basically the only thing keeping her from telling him he'd have an easier time of it if he just forgot all about her and did his own thing because the thought of losing someone who has always (sans two weeks) been there is scary as fuck. If he made a vow to her... she would accept it, but she'd probably cry, which he hates, but for all of the above reasons BECAUSE SHE KNOWS BETTER, BUT ALSO, SHE REALLY WANTS SOMEONE TO LEAN ON, she's so tired. It should be noted that there is absolutely no part of her brain that is smart enough to NOT demand that he give her his phone and activate both their Lives so they can get points. #Helping
Anyway I'm so sorry for everything she is going to put him through. Between being surrounded by hot boys/men all day every day, accidental Charm casting (he's definitely a possible target now, if you want that), Certain Plans As Yet Unnamed, and the nature of this place, Raijuu is gonna have a hard time.
Someday in the (distant? prrrobably distant) future after everyone remembers each other I want her to sneak both Raijuu and Jae-ha (and any other non HSS dragon fam? WILL ZENO AND KIJA AND YOON EVER APPEAR?) over for a sleepover for great glory and shenanigans and dragon fam pillow fights also maybe cuddles.
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Like Raijuu, Hiryuu has also been all over the place. She DID NOT EXPECT for him to turn up here because. I mean even though Cable and Wire are both from the same place, and Silver and Gold too-they all came together in the same wave. She never thought new people would be a thing, and there wasn't enough TIME between Abi appearing and meeting Raijuu for her to really intuit that. could be a thing. So just. PANIC and FEAR and OH NO, NOT THE BOY SHE SAID SHE WANTED TO PROTECT NO MATTER WHAT. And then things spiraled from there. She would have just drug herself across the broken glass from her brokero kokoro is not for people questioning her judgment, so kudos on them for that, it would have been a really hard time for her... as already evidenced. (Considering the things currently going down, I'm not sure she could have handled that other pressure. She would have, i guess, but not without breaking a lot of plates.)
She told Hurricane at first she didn't like him but. It was kneejerk childishness. "OF COURSE I DON'T LIKE HIM, HE BULLIES ME." But she was already compromised? Like of course she didn't like the way he treated HER but she found a lot of him admirable. Unlike Raijuu who is like "maybe I shouldn't treat these memories with a grain of salt" Hiryuu takes them as the Word of God. Even the ones that aren't hers, she's trying to adapt to accordingly: so Abi and Raijuu are Companions and Special People to her, full stop. In Abi's case, the feelings aren't quite there yet, but soon. Soon. Anyway she is very easily swayed by her heart and doesn't question things naturally so that's just her way. But it also just feels natural and comfortable to be able to have this bickering-but-not-serious pattern with him; like, it actually... relieves... some of her stress, somewhat. It's good for her, since she actually behaves like a normal person with him and takes off her Pope Hat (which is from now on what I am referring to her drive to be Inhumanly Good as).
He is absolutely right though to think that Hiryuu wouldn't believe that he's in love with her. She's already solidified in her mind that he sees her as unattractive and unfortunately memories will only further confirm that (although they should also not?? HIRYUU???) IT IS POSSIBLE, IN THEORY, THAT someone could convince her that Raijuu was lying, but then of course she would ask him and he would deny and they'd just start the same old song-and-dance around the hat again. But the more that she'll learn about herself, the less she'll see herself as a viable candidate for someone. Not Good Enough, doomed to Be Unhappy, apparently, thanks Dad/prophecies. Also eventually that feeling of self-blame for all of their presences here is going to really hit home and cement so. You know. ANYWAY POINT BEING she has already told B that she's just going to fully devote herself to her Missions because people only see her as a child/unfit for romance (boy Boss's impressions would not help with that) and so That Is That. (Except the real problem is Yona heart very squish and very full of love and already Compromised AND there is a part of her who DOES really crave positive attention and feeling loved and valued, hence EVERYTHING SOO-WON and baby crushes on people who are just thoroughly kind to her, so what are you gonna do..........)
I feel like I lost the plot here somehow. Oh yeah.
Anyway, Hiryuu is very. Torn. Responsible Pope Hat brain tells her that in order to be kind to Raijuu and not make him feel any kind of stress about picking between her and his unit, she should discourage him from making any kind of oath, televised or not. She is INCREDIBLY ANXIOUS about avante, like, she really does like them as people but their stance is much harder and she's afraid that they may end up at the other ends of each other's swords because like hell HSS wouldn't protect people (circumstance dependent) if avante went on the attack. She also has gotten the impression that ACE REALLY DOES NOT LIKE HER / THEM and like... vaguely.... maybe not *hostile* vibes but icy/unwelcome vibes and she feels like maybe an oath to her would just exacerbate all of that unpleasantness. But then there's SELFISH LIZARD BRAIN in the other corner of the ring and selfish lizard brain--it's not as strong as it COULD be, but selfish lizard brain is lonely and tired and it still doesn't want to let him go/wants a place to go to that feels like "home." Selfish lizard brain is basically the only thing keeping her from telling him he'd have an easier time of it if he just forgot all about her and did his own thing because the thought of losing someone who has always (sans two weeks) been there is scary as fuck. If he made a vow to her... she would accept it, but she'd probably cry, which he hates, but for all of the above reasons BECAUSE SHE KNOWS BETTER, BUT ALSO, SHE REALLY WANTS SOMEONE TO LEAN ON, she's so tired. It should be noted that there is absolutely no part of her brain that is smart enough to NOT demand that he give her his phone and activate both their Lives so they can get points. #Helping
Anyway I'm so sorry for everything she is going to put him through. Between being surrounded by hot boys/men all day every day, accidental Charm casting (he's definitely a possible target now, if you want that), Certain Plans As Yet Unnamed, and the nature of this place, Raijuu is gonna have a hard time.
Someday in the (distant? prrrobably distant) future after everyone remembers each other I want her to sneak both Raijuu and Jae-ha (and any other non HSS dragon fam? WILL ZENO AND KIJA AND YOON EVER APPEAR?) over for a sleepover for great glory and shenanigans and dragon fam pillow fights
also maybe cuddles.