[there is some... dark amusement but also just more Tired as he gives her hair a pet.]

There was some game-induced insanity and mild ghost possession that enabled some of that... but A and I never really went easy on each other, earlier on.

And it's good that you don't want that for yourself.

I won't excuse him for his own actions... but earlier when you said "people he worked with"--that's not quite right. It was "person he worked for". And he mostly worked for this guy so he could get close enough to get revenge against him.

[except while there's some kind of deep, dark anger at the person A worked for, there's still that Complicated feelings--it's not wholly for A. it's... clearly more personal.]

I can't really say I'm much better... but I can at least encourage better ways to handle it, if you need that.